talking about the episode on documentary 星期二特写 that was shown few years ago just now, it probably is going to be one of the most hurtful and memory that is hard to swallow.
even though she was one of the girl that i really felt alot for, i couldnt help but feel unjust for myself that how she potraited herself as being ditched at the busstop that day, and that bastard came to comfort her, and the rest is history.
the story: how they got together;
the untold story: how the man-to-be tried all methods to get sick to bookout just to see the girl but a bastard snatched her away simply because he is the classmate and spend more time together in a day added up we spend together in a week.
despite this, she, along N, remains the two ladies i will not allow people to bad mouth on.
i feel for her no more.
probably soft spots for her.
i will write in to mediacorp if i ever get whole of the footage again, on their inacuracy of their potrait of me.
i definitely will.
Facebook is definitely a more convenient place to post my thought of the moments but I realized with the more friends I have, the lesser things I can post..
Sigh.
This blog has too many secrets.
with most of my time spent on my PS3, drinking with the gang and not forgetting my portfolio, i also forgot this blog that has kept most of my secrets.
i have abadoned it for a good half year.
probably a new template after i get another portoflio up.
meanwhile, http://d.reality.per.sg/
I am enjoying that little flirtation.
In fact I think I like it.
Too bad it seem to have died down.
Oh well.
ima spoilt kid.
honestly, i didnt like what i was told today by the boss.
despite the numerous ranting, grumbling and complaining amongst the lunch people, whatever i was assigned to do, i did it.
probably nobody knew the effort, but i tried my best most of the time.
when i was told "she is so quiet and people bully her, "unlike you complain so much" and "i spoilt you", i thought "what the fuck?".
she is one of my indian colleague of another department, supposingly to help me with my load end last year.
true enough, she is quiet.
so much so that when i didnt ask, nothing would arrive.
i took the effort to send out certain mailers on certain dates, she took mc on that day. noone probably realised it but i took it by stride to follow it. of course, noone realised it.
quiet, to the extend of simply ignoring my reminders to update some slides, and it became my job again.
the boss knew i complaint to defend myself, yet unknown to her, she remaining quiet is her way of bullying people.
and unknown to the boss again, i got bullied.
spoilt? like fuck.
i asked for a headcount to support me, and the MD got the same indian gir to help me because she can write.
fair enough, she writes. and then she stopped writing without informing until the day of submission.
and for this one piece of mailer of few paragraphs, the boss said "its your fault that i have to takeover her department." indirectly, the shit.
how is it my fault? had my reasoning not make sense, and had she not been a redundant staff who has been seen as doing nothing much, would the MD throw her to the boss? had she really been contributing in her then department, would her then boss allow her the transfer?
if asking her to do what she has been doing all the while is called being bullied, then what is asking me to do the same things?
for her quietness that resulted her of "being bullied", i have to take over some of her jobs that dont even need alot of attention.
like i told the boss, if the task she assigned are those that i can do, i will do it. since i already anticipated it coming, fine.
i ranted to the HR this evening that i will return the words they, whoever, said to me when i leave.
- the MD, "you cannot design." the ultimate.
- SD, "they need to justify your headcount." despite i'm the only soul and spirit in that department.
- the CFO, "you can do mah. " even after umpteenth times hinting him that i would not be the one doing so in the future.
- the boss, "i have spoilt you." like fuck.
watch this space.
some people sure doesn't change despite some changes in life, of course, unless the change is planned for. come to think of it, maybe it is. with the abundance in luxury weeks before, it make sense to stage a "hit and run robbery".
just like leopard never changes it's spots, the lies, the craps and the materialism never left the person. it's not difficult to not believe and it's even much more not difficult to verify that.
i know being racist is bad enough but i cant help but be further prejudiced towards that certain religion. more than enough has been done prior to this incident for me to damn this person a lying-hypocritical-attitude-dishonest-materialistic preacher, and now another (lame&lousy) lie. not that i really care if it is a lie, but whatever for?
so much for thanking god for this and that. better thank god for finding you another carrot you probably dont deserve.
i dont need you, maybe from the start, so please fuckoff 
far far away 
starting to lose the interest in the silly hide-and-seek tweets.. and thats gonna be for the better
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considering a new domain..
